Tears.

I want to know you so well that I know every little thing about you.

I want to know all your little habits. I want to know all of your facial expressions by heart.

I want to know you so well that I know exactly what's going through your mind even if I can't see your face.

I want to know the little things.

I want to know how you jingle your keys when you're walking to your car in the cold.

I want to know what makes you cry.

I want to know the look in your eye when you're genuinely happy.

I want to know everything.

I want to know when I'm going to find that guy. The guy that I can know inside out. I wonder if I'll ever get that.

I knew Braydon. I knew everything about him. Every little facet of his personality. But I never got to learn his physical habits...his facial expressions...the tone of his voice.

I want that. Someday I want that. I want to love someone so much, and know them so well.

I can't help but feel discouraged, especially at this time of year...not having that person that loves me like that and the person I love that way.

I want someone with me. I want him with me. Who is he?? Where is he?? When does he get here??

I want someone to know and love and cherish.

I don't want to cry anymore.