What you want is right here.

I think I'm going to start school again next semester. This potentially makes me stationary for a time. Not entirely, I guess, as the degree can be achieved almost wholly online. I'm looking forward to it, for once. I've finally discovered my niche...I feel like I've found a career that suits me and that I'm good at. So, here's to pursuing it.

This week has been mundane at best. Nothing entirely noteworthy. Just going through the motions.

I have been extremely obsessed with John Mayer lately. I have his newest album on repeat, basically. I bought tickets to his show here in Memphis in March 2010. And I find that I am crossing my fingers like crazy to find a way to meet him while he's here. I was thinking about my Mayer obsession, and realized that, for some reason, I'm so adamant about this because John Mayer's music makes me think of Braydon.

Everything makes me think of Braydon.

New Moon released at midnight in the US. I'm going to see it on Sunday, but am going fully prepared to cry the entire time. This book of the series reminds me most of Braydon and I's forced separation. I relate too well to the searing pain that Bella feels throughout this book.

Not that I ever regret it. I am thankful for those moments, even when they find themselves knocking on my heart again. Lord knows I'd rather feel those aches for Braydon than to never feel him at all.

I'm not really sure why, but something this week has made me completely sure he's out there. Nothing happened to make me think that, really...I just have a calm in my heart. Almost as if he's close...like our 'stars' of sorts are about to change.

I've missed someone my entire life. There has always been this ache for someone since I was a child. But I never knew who it was that I missed all of those years until I met him. And, now that I know, I miss him all the more and love him far more dearly for it.

Someday. Someday soon.