take my hand in the meantime.

I convince myself daily that I've 'moved on'. My life moves forward just fine every day. I don't feel like I've put my life on hold. But I guess I have. Some things aren't meant to leave our hearts, I guess. I haven't quite figured out how I feel about that. It's almost too much, sometimes. I keep living vicariously through my memories. I keep crying because I feel like Jonathan and Sara in Serendipity...I feel like I am meant for him, but we met and were meant to live our lives separately for a while until we just happen to run into each other one day.

It's hard to live your life knowing the person you're meant to be with, but not knowing where they are or if they think of you or if they even know you exist.

I fight with myself. I try not to think I'm pathetic. But, in reality, I know that I probably am. I mean, here I am 4 years after he told me he loved me, still holding on. Here I am...4 years later still waiting for someone that I never even met in person. Someone that left at some point, and I had no idea until the person that lied to me finally fessed up.

I keep looking around, hoping there is even a guy that I can watch and see that there are guys that I can get along with that easily. But there isn't one. I haven't even met one that is even a tenth of what Braydon was to me. I don't want anyone else, but I keep hoping that I will at least see someone that has those traits...someone to remind me that he is possible.

You know, I think that the only person that won't think I'm pathetic is him. He'll likely be the only one to ever be thankful for the constant thoughts of him. All I ever write about is him. When I touch on my emotions, he's the first thing and the last thing to come to mind. Do I have no other emotions?

You were my ticket outta here.
I was your dream come true.
You gave me everything I ever wanted, except for you.
I convinced myself that over don't mean over.
I convinced myself that I could fix it all.
Two dreams collided. Maybe we got too excited for our own good.
No more 'Hold on. We can make it.'
No more holding each other while the world's all breaking.
Move on. You know we'll be stronger in the end.
I convinced myself that nothing could ever tear me away.
I convinced myself that we'd look back and laugh at this one day.
Two lives collided. Maybe we got too excited for our own good.
No more 'Hold on. We can make it.'
No more holding our breath while the truth all breaks it.
Move on. You know we'll be stronger in the end.
Hey, wait. Hey, don't you know that this is where the whole thing went wrong.
Hey, wait. Hey, don't you wanna hear what I have to say?
Hey, wait. Hey, don't you know that this is where the strong will go on?
All I ever wanted,
All I ever wanted,
All I ever wanted,
Was you.
No more 'Hold on. We can make it.'
No more holding each other while the world tries to break us.
Move on. You know we'll be stronger in the end.
All I ever wanted,
All I ever wanted,
All I ever wanted,
Was you.